"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle, sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much"
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Trials? Not that I have anymore trials or any more on my plate than the next girl, I don't. I tend to put myself right in the middle of the pack. I don't have nearly as much to handle as most but I have had a couple of winners and at times it feels overwhelming. Everyday I tell my kids that everything is going to be fine, that we are strong, that we will be protected and taken care of. I tell them that I am here for them and that we are going to make it through this crazy time in our lives. Sounds convincing enough, right? It sounds good and sometimes when I say it I actually start believing it myself. I have to, I can't let them think for one minute that I am unsure of the changes and I can't let them see that I am not as strong as a super-hero. My toughest challenge is convincing them that all is well, appearing strong and unbreakable. This is a life changing experience and although at times I may seem to have it all together, I don't. I KNOW, such depressing thoughts should never be allowed in bloggerville! Sorry to bring a dark cloud to the land of happy posts.
6 comments:
Oh Carrie, you make my heart hurt! All I know is, you CAN do it if anyone can, you can! Keep moving forward...watch "meet the Robinsons" if you don't get that, it is always darkest before the dawn...it's coming!
You are a strong woman and a wonderful mom to your children Carrie. You're lucky to have each other. You can get through and you will. Keep your head up girl....you know we're all here for you! :)
BTW: I wish I knew of this years ago so I could have saved you$350....but I was told to just breathe in Owen's mouth so then the pea would blow out his nose. Ty did this to him and it was seriously hilarious and kind of sick all at the same time! Great times at the Tolman's!
HEY, EVERYONE HAS A BREAK DOWN POST. I INFACT HAVE MANY!!! SO IT'S ALL GOOD!! I THINK YOU NEED TO JUST BE ABLE TO CRY YOU NEED A GOOD CRY!!!! YOU ARE STRONG!! YOU ARE DOING IT. YOUR KIDS ARE WONDERFUL AND THEY WILL FIGURE IT ALL OUT WHEN THEY GET OLDER AND LOOK BACK AND LOVE AND RESPECT YOU MORE THEN ANYTHING.. I PROMISE!!YOU NEED A GIRLS NIGHT!!!SO WHERE ARE WE GOING I'M THERE!!!!
Carrie, I am so sorry that this crap is happening to you. I question so many times the Lord's trust in my strength. Were we deaf in heaven when they told us to get in line for problems??? I have had to decide that I MUST be strong. I know you are and that you are an amazing Mother! Your kids are your best friends and they love and appreciate you more than you find out...until they get older! I love ya and I think about you all the time. Please let me know if there is EVER anything I can do!!!!!
You can do this...you are so strong. It is okay to have a break down every now and then...just remember to pick yourself back up and move on. Your children will always remember you were there for them! I promise!
I agree with Lindsey you need a girls night out. Think about it!
You are so amazing. I know exactly how you feel and I also know that you will make it through all of this. It's ok to cry or scream ... get it all out!! Know that you are loved by many!! Pick yourself up and dust yourself off ... and go on with your darling self!
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